That rainy day again

It's raining today ..

Lots of headaches in the morning, not even sleeping.

The head is heavy, the thoughts are random. I feel dizzy a lot .. Today the sky is covered with black clouds, it is raining on the banks of the Mushul ... It is raining incessantly, I am not feeling well.

I am thinking of getting wet in the rain..but the fear that fever may come is also hurting my mind.

I didn't sleep all night yesterday, I was having a lot of thoughts and memories .. I was getting depressed and restless .. I was taking sleeping pills but it was not working, I had a lot of headaches which were exceeding the limit of tolerance..eyes became red, fever and It was coming ... I couldn't say when I finally fell asleep in the last hours of the night. I was at home from this morning to this afternoon, I didn't go out at all .. Today the environment is different with the rain

As if the mind of Brishti like me is not feeling well today. The phone has been ringing since morning. I haven't picked up a phone. Belayet, Sahib has been calling since morning. There is no desire to pick up the phone. Today is Wasi's birthday, but whose birthday is this Not in the world. Today, Wasi remembers too much, his memories make me even more tired ... I remember that watermelon tree. It is unknown at this time what he will do after leaving the post.

The memories of how many times we used to hang out with two friends still hit the brain.

Those memories are still alive, not just Wasi. Everything is the same as before, only the breast friend is not tied.

Wasi died in a road accident a year and a half ago. In reality, he no longer exists ...

Now there is no one to call this Rihanna an ass, a bastard, no one to make my first wish on my birthday ..

It was raining on the day he died and it is still raining today. Finally I got rid of my thoughts and got wet in the rain. I am standing in the open field, it seems that someone is calling from behind ..

The voice seems to be Wasir e.

But in reality it is never possible.

After soaking in the rain for an hour and a half, I grabbed a cigarette from a small tea shop in the area and came home with a cup of smoked tea.

I came home and wiped my body.

Fever has come, breathing is fast, body temperature has also risen .....

I turned off the lights while lying on the bed, my body has already started trembling ... numbness in speech, dry throat, difficulty in swallowing .. difficulty in breathing ..

Suddenly I realized my vision was blurred ...

Then I realized that someone came to my dark room and sat behind me..I can't see, but I realized that it was wasted. But his being here is the opposite of reality.

That's all I see ...

Suddenly I thought he grabbed my hand and said Rihanna friend I am very good I just miss you a lot on the other side, I wanted to say crazy I miss you too much Ray .. I could not find any strength to say.

He said again, my friend, take care of your life, I am always by your side ...

He might have said something else, but then the dark hours passed.

Understood everything is my imagination .... !!